| i love you, cookie monster.
always and forever.
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~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ The Player ~~~~~~~~~~~~~
He'll meet you and sweep you off of your feet
He's nice and he's funny, so cute and so sweet
Surprisingly, he likes the same things as you
He does all the things that you love to do a
He's the perfect guy, the one of your dreams
You belong together, or so it seems!
He looks in your eyes, and plays with your hair
He tells you that he'll always be there
His touch is so soft, his hold is so tight,
His words are so soothing, his kiss is just right!
You ditch all your friends for your new obsession
You don't realize your future is full of depression
You think that you love him, you give him your heart
Little do you know that he'll tear it apart
You do what he wants, you know its not good
You told him slow down, and
you think he understood
You let it slide by, he's just having fun
You'll learn to like it as time goes on!
He's taken your heart, and locked it away
And you see him with a different girl the next day
You cry and you grieve, but then you forgive,
He won't do it again for as long as he lives!
At this point you've fallen into his trap
He has all control when you're in his lap
You believe he's sorry, you're together again
You give him a chance, he's your only friend!
You're right where he wants you, he molds you like clay,
And you see him with girl number 3 the next day
He got what he wanted, accomplished his goal
He still has your heart, which he evilly stole!
He's taken your purity, you still can't believe
You feel hurt and cheap and extremely naive.
If only your hair was blond and straight
If only you looked like you lost some weight
If only your clothes were a little bit tighter
If only your teeth were a little bit whiter
You know he's an ass, but you still want him back
And you grieve about all of those qualities you lack
All you wanted was to have some fun
Now you wish that this whole thing had never begun
You wish that one day u'll see him cry
That one day he'll know how he killed you inside!
But you know that he won't, cause he's numb to pain
He'll be with some girl while you cry and complain
Beware of the players, they'll steal your heart
And they'll give it back once its all torn apart
Don't let them suck you into their game
see once you lose, you're never the same. |
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| O. M. G.
being drunk is SO horrible!!!
one moment i was drinking..the next i was all over the place...breaking things...i know that most of the time i was on the floor...
they video recorded the process...which was actually quite funny..hahaha...
then i somehow passed out on the couch...woke up and puked...
felt slightly better...watched video...and then felt so very sick again...and puked once again...
perhaps that is how a hangover feels like..i don't know..but it was horrid...
vivi and fred came to get me...i know that matt could take care of me...
and that anthony offered to take me home and stuff...
but i don't know...i needed to get out of there...and i guess i felt more comfortable with my close friends..
matt was kinda upset at that...but meh...we left...i still felt really bad...
went to tim horton..and i coudln't even walk straight...
but thankfully...i slowly started to sober up...
the soup was good..and then the coke helped me burp out a lot of gas i suppose...which helped me feel better...at least i didn't want to puke...
came home...showered..and ate some more...i hope i don't get hangover tmr...>__<"..
lesson learnt: DON'T GET DRUNK!!
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| i seem to have lost my special touch with xanga...
there was a point in time where i'll just pour out my feelings on xanga...whether it be happy ones...sad ones...angry ones...it just comes pouring out...but now...i'm becoming more and more reserved i suppose....i don't even bother writing private entries...so it's not like i'm afraid of people knowing stuff about me..perhaps it's my escape...perhaps this is me avoiding to dig into my feelings and my thoughts to even write them down...
perhaps i've lost my touch in expressing myself...or explaining...
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| ok ok ok...guess a little update...motivated by kenny's post...else i would've delayed it another month or something..lol...
Matt and I have been spending lots of time together...we're very much part of each other's lives...but i suppose sometimes we're too much in each other's faces and we still get annoyed at one another from time to time...we've had some rough times...lots of yelling...arguing...door slamming...car speeding...crying...and whatnot....lots of doubtful times and such....but in the end we're still together...he'll be starting his new job soon which i'm glad...and he'll be extremely glad about also...we'll be able to pull through i think....for once...i feel like i'm in a real relationship...not just some highschool drama...
lots of people have been telling me stuff about my relationship...and i do appreciate and listen...but at the same time while i talk to Matt...things are just different...perhaps i'm just gullible and naive just like before...but if i don't hang on.....how will i ever know what can become of us?..he tells me to trust him...to let him prove himself...and that's what i'm doing...i can't just give up on him like that...i can't just give up on us like that....
so besides him....my mom will be coming back to Toronto soon..she's been gone for a month now...and she seems to be enjoying her time...after she comes back..shortly after my grandparents would be leaving...so we'll see how things go....gonna be hectic like last year again...
as for my friends...i haven't been able to see a lot of them as much as i like to....don't even get to see D4L anymore..it's mainly coz of work...working on fridays and saturdays...coming home late...don't have much time to do anything else...it's great to have met a new group of friends from work though...all are quite nice and very sweet...which i'm glad about..=)...work can be so very stressful...but at the same time...very fun...=)...
don't know what else to really write about that has been going on with me...my head is killing me right now..so i can't really think properly...
on a side note though....some people really need to get a life...i don't understand why some people would attempt to ruin someone else's life..someone else in which they do not know...but their sole purpose is to make their life miserable...how pathetic is that?..and really...how stupid is it?..you don't even know the person...don't know who they are...what they're capable of doing...what their background is...what they will do and such...yet you open your big mouth..make up some big lie...trying to convince them to turn against each other...please...do us all a favour..and get a fucking life...coz right now...you're living quite a pathetic one...
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